Birds

Yesterday I went to the local Aviary, and I thought it was fantastic. My roommate is always raving about how cool it is and I finally got to see for myself. Birds are so entertaining to watch and listen to. It was also really cool to see so many different types of birds and where they all come from. It was a great time and I was just so excited about it that I thought I would mention it in my blog.

Biking is for me

While I was in St. George last weekend I finally remembered to pick up a bike my brother was trying to get rid of. I have been wanting a bike, but am too cheap to buy one. On Tuesday I put it together and was so excited that I decided to ride it to work. It really made my day! I was so happy while at work that my co-workers thought I was even more crazy than they previously thought.
I have been riding my bike around everywhere I can think of ever since. I am pretty sure that this new addition to my life is going to really improve my life in all aspects.

The Stars Beyond

I was up in the mountains this evening tubing with some friends. I looked up at the stars and realized that you actually could see the stars. It was amazing and I just had to take a minute and gaze up at them. I got to thinking about just how much I love taking the time to look up at the stars and to contemplate things of a deeper nature. I think such rituals are what my life has been lacking lately. I should seek the fresh air of the mountains and clear skies more often.

No Complaints

This week was a really good week. I was able to accomplish a lot of things, yet I had a blast at the same time. Yesterday was a really good Sunday for me. I felt like I was able to talk to a lot of people that I might not normally. I am slowly discovering that I am really good at being around people and getting things done and organized. I like to think that I am a good leader and am able to make people feel comfortable about things they might not normally be comfortable with.

This week has been a very assuring week for me. I feel like I am where I am supposed to be in life, pursuing the things that I am supposed to be pursuing. I am happy with where I am at and what I am doing. I am happy. Truly and honestly, and I just need to stop letting myself think that I shouldn't be or that it would be wrong to be happy.

Last night I thought it would be fun to see if I would be able to find my blog. The inspiration for the search being that I have told people about my blog, but have not given them the address, so I wanted to see if it would be possible to find via a google search. The results being that it was very hard to find. Most people know me by my real name, but my blogger name is my nickname so when people try to find it using my name they have no luck. I was eventually able to find it, but only because I know the contents of my blog. So if anyone who reads my blog has found it by seeking it out, I say "congratulations," you are better than I.

Today was a good day.

I don't know what it was but today I was just really happy. It just seemed that wherever I was and whatever I was doing was fantastic. Days like today make me realize how life should be all the time. What is the point of being sad when the alternative is being happy?

I think of the running I have been doing is finally having an effect. It is amazing what a little exercise can do for ones perspective.

Too much Fun

Yesturday I hiked Mt. Timpanogos. It was an interesting experience for me. While I was doing it I just wanted to kill myself because it was such a long and hard hike. Today I am not too sore and I could probably be talked into doing it again. It was a beautiful hike and I really did like it most of the time, but going into the whole thing I thought the hike was a total of 12 miles. Come to find out it was 12 miles each way. Unfortunately we didn't find this out until we were a couple of miles in already. The highlights were 1- being on top of the second tallest peak in Utah and being able to see some beautiful sights 2- seeing some fun wildlife including moose and mountain goats 3- being able to slide down a 50 ft snow slide 4- hiking with some fun people and 5- being able to prove to myself that I am stronger than what I give myself credit for. The lowlights were 1- being so tired that I couldn't control the movements of my legs 2- getting nice and sunburned and 3- hiking for 9 hours. So I suppose there were more good things that came of the hike than bad.

I will have to post some pictures later because one of the other hikers has them all. When we went to take the first pictures I found out my batteries were dead, a fellow hiker found out his camera was being weird, and the other fellow hiker found out his memory was full. So between my memory card, anothers batteries, and anothers camera we were able to make up one camera and take some fun pictures, but it means that I don't have any of them right now. I will post them when they are sent along to me.



Looking up the canyon...still a long ways to the top.



Jake and I near the top of Timpanogos



View from the timpy top (haha timpy instead of tippy...well at least I thought it was funny)



On the way down we slid down this snow...it was freaking awesome, but really cold

I'm Broken

Okay well it is just a sprain, but I feel broken not being able to function properly and everything. Here are some cool pictures of the sprain, it is really just that ugly in person. I may be a little embarassed to go to church tomorrow...they are going to think I am abused or something.



Look how fat it is...I have freaking cankles!

Seriously

I was bored and was trying to figure out what I can do to kill some time. I looked at my blog and realized that I haven't posted anything since before Christmas and I got a little ashamed of myself. I blame the blog vacation on boys. Okay I wish I could blame the vacation on boys, but sadly the finger belongs pointed at myself. I am not really sure where all the time has gone these last two months, I think back on them and I don't believe that I have really accomplished much of anything. Oh well such is life after graduation I suppose.

This last weekend I went on a cooking spree and decided to make 120 heart-shaped sugar cookies for my mingle yesterday. It was freaking crazy, I am pretty sure that I will never make that many cookies again in my life. They ended up turning out really good though. I made pink frosting to go on top that people could add if they so desired.

I got my haircut about a week and a half ago. Below you will find the results of the haircut...both curly and straight version.




I have been looking for some new music to listen to and I found a myraid of fun artists/songs, that I enjoy. Among them are some new Jethro Tull and Mother Hips, Chromatics, Sherwood, and Valencia. The new music was much appreciated by my ipod and my ears.

Festivus

Its Christmas time and I have been doing a lot of fun Christmas things. I am usually kind of a bumhuggy kind of person, but this year I feel super festive. I think I had a good start by going shopping on black friday. There is something about being surrounded by hundreds of people who are completely out of their minds.

My roommate and I got our Christmas tree last weekend and our house is decked to the halls with christmasiness.



Gingerbread houses were made,



wreaths were made and hung,



and lights are all a twitter in the snow. It has been fun this year since it is my second Christmas in this house living with the same roommate so we have some traditions now and it has been a lot of fun. The constant struggle still remains...what do I buy to give everyone??

Growing Pains

So I am really good at pretending that I am a really tough person. I act like most things don't affect me. I am starting to realize that they affect me me more than I allowed myself to realize. I have decided that it is time to make some new friends, this decision seriously scares me. I don't really like making new friends and I am not very good at it. But something in my life has to change or something is going to go seriously wrong. Becoming an adult is hard and sucks.

What did you do to my cup?

So I got a new job. It pays less, but is a lot less stressful. It is crazy I have so much fun with my co-workers, I sometimes feel bad because I have so much fun. I come home exhaused from laughing all day. I am so much happier because of it. The job change was totally worth it, plus I am doing something that I love now. which makes all the difference in the world.

The Office was pretty freaking hilarous tonight, and I can't wait to see Grey's Anatomy on Saturday.

Soccer pains

I have a passion for soccer. There is just something that I really like that I feel when I play. I can't really describe it, but I know that I need it. Last night I had a game and my foot got stepped on...it really hurts. I really like dribbling around people.

I wish whatever it is that has decided to settle in my heart would go away even when I am not playing soccer.

Summer Goals

One of my goals for the summer is to run a 5K in less than 25 minutes. This morning I had a race and I woke up at 4:45am to run it. Which in my opinion is way too early. Runners are freaking crazy. My time was 25.17...so not happy. 17 freaking seconds. Now I have to run another race just so I can accomplish my stupid goal. I did get second in my age group which got me a super cool medal which I am sure my posterity is going to appreciate. I guess having to run another race will make it so I will continue to work hard this summer.

Watch Yourself

I still flinch when someone makes any quick movements when they are near me. I am pretty sure that I look super silly, but it is a reflex that is hard to untrain. Most of my life it was a very useful reflex and one that was enabled with good cause. People just think I am flinchy, but only I know better. I was trained to have such sharp reflexes. I learned from previous experiences that those reflexes were what kept me safe. To some I may just be flinchy, but to me everytime I flinch I have a memory of my brother. He was my main teacher. A poke here, and fake punch there, I was poised and ready at any moment from any direction the threat may come from. Now my reflex goes mainly unused, and generally there is no real threat, but the memory is what I long for.

GRADUATION

Some of you may have already heard that I am graduating...in just a couple of hours as a matter of fact. It is so crazy to think that I have been up here in SLC for three years now, it seems like just yesterday that I came up here. So much has changed since then. Truthfully I am a little scared for school to be over. I know how to do school, I don't know how to have a career or a full-time job, ironically enough they don't really teach you that in school. It is going to be interesting how long I will be able to stay away from school. I am already kind of going crazy with the whole working all the time thing. Life just doesn't seem as fullfilling. I have decided that I am going to have to find some new hobbies to help fill my time.
For some reason while I was growing up I never really thought of what I would do with my life after I didn't have school anymore. Well I guess that is not intirely true, but I didn't see myself as being single and graduated. However now that I am at that point I am not sad or angry I actually have been having a really fun time being single. I don't think I would have done anything differently.

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I am glad

So my goal of not laughing so much didn't pan out. I decided that it is okay, I like laughing and being happy, it is what makes me me. When I am happy people know it and I think that is a good thing.

Things that made me happy this week:

My institute teacher being serious about setting me up
Going to a free concert
My family having a debate as to whether or not I have a boyfriend
Talking with an old friend
Bonding with my lil' sis.
Seeing my flowers bloom
Hearing my favorite song on the radio when I woke up
The awesome whether that permitted me to wear flip-flops

I'll Show you Happy

I think I have a disease...I can't stop laughing. This really shouldn't be a negative thing, but really it is getting to the point where I annoy myself because I laugh too much. I am never serious, because as a coping mechanism I laugh when something gets serious. Then there are the laughing attacks where I just start laughing for no apparent reason. The attacks usually last about five minutes and the longest one recorded was ten. It is very tireing and quite frankly I am getting sick of it. "And my buns, they don't look nuttin like steel"

Goal for this week: Be serious and not laugh

Jittery

I am nervous. I think I like my new job, but it makes me nervous. I don't know if it is because I feel like I am branching out into the real world or if it is because I don't think that I am qualified to do it. Tomorrow I will be on my own for most of the day, so I will see how I hold up.