Growing Pains

So I am really good at pretending that I am a really tough person. I act like most things don't affect me. I am starting to realize that they affect me me more than I allowed myself to realize. I have decided that it is time to make some new friends, this decision seriously scares me. I don't really like making new friends and I am not very good at it. But something in my life has to change or something is going to go seriously wrong. Becoming an adult is hard and sucks.