Summer Goals

One of my goals for the summer is to run a 5K in less than 25 minutes. This morning I had a race and I woke up at 4:45am to run it. Which in my opinion is way too early. Runners are freaking crazy. My time was 25.17...so not happy. 17 freaking seconds. Now I have to run another race just so I can accomplish my stupid goal. I did get second in my age group which got me a super cool medal which I am sure my posterity is going to appreciate. I guess having to run another race will make it so I will continue to work hard this summer.

Watch Yourself

I still flinch when someone makes any quick movements when they are near me. I am pretty sure that I look super silly, but it is a reflex that is hard to untrain. Most of my life it was a very useful reflex and one that was enabled with good cause. People just think I am flinchy, but only I know better. I was trained to have such sharp reflexes. I learned from previous experiences that those reflexes were what kept me safe. To some I may just be flinchy, but to me everytime I flinch I have a memory of my brother. He was my main teacher. A poke here, and fake punch there, I was poised and ready at any moment from any direction the threat may come from. Now my reflex goes mainly unused, and generally there is no real threat, but the memory is what I long for.